Sunday, March 27, 2011
7am and i go back to sleep
clement : *singing to friday by rebecca black*
sam: you sing it horribly
clement : doesnt matter, i cant butcher it any much more
sam: i think you just did.
samquek
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
put you in a song
i like this song. it's really sweet and nice and catchy. but no.. ill probably die if i actually 'wrap you up in a melody so that you will be stuck in my head all day cause you're already there anyway'
Well here you come again and you're lookin' so fine
You don't notice me but it's alright
I'm just a guy who wishes that I could be your man someday
Yeah a picture paints a thousand words it's true
But it's still not enough for how I feel about you
I wanna put you in a melody, I gotta set you to a groove
I wanna put you in my car and drive
And turn you up loud, roll down all the windows and shout it out
I love this girl oh
If I could press play, repeat how happy I'd be
Wherever I'd go I'd have you there with me
You'd be right where you belong
I wanna put you in a song, oh oh oh
Well I'd sing about your smile and your pretty blue eyes
The way your hair shimmers in the sunlight
It'd be so easy I'd just write it from my heart
'Cause I gotta tell the world what you mean to me
Wrap you up in a melody so you'll be
Stuck in my head all day
'Cause you're already there anyway, yes you are
samquek
Sunday, March 20, 2011
you get stressed and depressed when you are tired but you think so much more when you arent.
today was a really weird day. i'm not weird when i am alone. people around me makes me weird.. and stupid. seriously, i am perfectly fine and normal when i am by myself. but put me with people and ill just make a fool out of myself.
i think im getting more and more people-conscious. and i think i can't really relate to people.. i do not understand how someone can talk constantly to another person and not run out of things to say. wonder if i will ever find someone who i can talk to constantly without feeling bored or uncomfortable.
i realize you have stopped being my comfort, someone who i can just be myself with.
resting too much isn't good. it gives you the energy to think.. and.. reflect and feel all strange in the stomach, heart and brain.
but then after, not resting at all just makes you depressed and awful.
middle is good. yup.
romans 5:3-5
... but we also rejoice in our suffering because we know that suffering produces perservances; perservances, character; character, hope. and hope doesn't disappoint us because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the holy spirit
i feel strangely encouraged by these verses which i wrote on my paper screen window, which was the purpose of why i wrote it in the first place i guess. haha. so good job, past sam.
somehow, there are so much meanings in these verses.. even though i do not know half of them?
what is this hope that Paul was speaking about?
i'm still trying to grasp the understanding of hope.. and faith, for that matter.
hebrews 11:1
now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
is hope just about waiting for the second coming for Jesus, to be rewarded eternally?
what about hoping for something earthly?
i do not know whether i am truly hoping in the Lord, and hence, know that if i hold on longer, i will get it or if i am actually just wishing so badly that i feel that i would eventually get it.
or is it wrong if i just say 'hey, i should just stop hoping anf expecting so that i wont be disappointed if i dont get it.' is that being faithless?
it's so strange. why do i always think of your somewhat good points when your horrible flaws are so blatantly obvious right in front of my eyes.
the simple giving of the chocolate probably meant nothing to you.
but it's giving me, so far, two days of pondering and emo-emo-ing.
not to mention the fats that comes along with the eating of the chocolate.
haha..
http://www.cracked.com/article_19104_why-humanity-cant-get-past-7-deadly-sins.html
this is really funny.
alright.
i should go and concentrate on my design.
bloody staircases.
samquek
Saturday, March 19, 2011
up and away we go
http://www.archdaily.com/121243/balloon-house-takes-flight/
they actually flew a 16 by 16 ft house with 300 balloons.
that's so cool.
(:
samquek
someday we'll know why the sky is blue
as the sunlight hits the Earth's atmosphere, the light rays bend and defracts. and since we see the colour blue more clearly than the other colours, we see the sky as blue.
too bad science can't really explain the other 'someday we'll know's..
samquek
Friday, March 18, 2011
it's a quarter after one
a part of me is saying..
what would i do to go back to when i was 18 years old.
i was happy then.
i am a litle stronger, a little wiser, a little more mature..
but i think i was more happy then
samquek
and i'll kill you if you lose control
funny how there are quite a number of people having the same problem these days.
i'm thinking of letting you go completely. there's no point trying to pick up and fix a broken picture of memories.
the slightest thought now tire me out so so much. and when i sleep too much, i'll just dream of you. and the horrible thing is that.. i know you don't.
but i'm not going to be sad.
there's no point being sad over this. nothing is gained out of it.
this week, i have been pretty slack. even though i wanted to work hard. haha. but then, i got sick. i guess germs just finally caught up with me.
it's awful to be sick and yet still having to go school.
you cant really have your favourite comfort snack, you desperately need to just lie down and sleep for awhile cause of your cold but you just can't, and people comment on your red eyes and the number of tissues packets you use.
-.-
i want my ramen soon. haha.
but i need sleep first. hope to get better by tomorrow.
samquek
Monday, March 14, 2011
need to stop whining and complaining
it felt pretty nice not having to rush with work and waking up by my own self rather than by the neighbours and the construction, or the bloody alarm clock that goes 'boing, boing, boing'
Felt good to slowly get ready to leave the house rather than rushing out as soon as i'm awake for school.
but no more already.
time to wake up as early possible to do work in school.
in other words, its the 'shut up and do work' operation.
samquek
Friday, March 11, 2011
last days on earth?
horrible flood and earthquake in japan. ): be strong yeah? i am praying for you.
i think these kind of things shake you more when you have friends over there. and it makes you realize that having tons of assignments to do and suffering over a heartbreak and loneliness beat having to deal with the aftermath of an earthquake and a flood.
and it really makes me think..
if it's going to be the last few years or even months on earth..
will i die without regrets?
there're many things i havent really done yet?
and i dont mean getting married, hsving kids, being a taitai or even celebrating my 21st..
it's more about..
getting something eternally-lasting done..
ahhhhhh..
samquek
old friends
great time fellowshipping at the airport even though i was pretty tired and we left only at 2am??
i feel a little light headed now since i finished all my submissions for this week and my brain doesnt have to think about work for the next two days.
a funny thing that happened today. i fell asleep in the train on the way home from school. woke up when the train was at redhill and asked myself whether i was on my way to school in the morning or going back home at night. and for a moment after that, i thought i slept a whole loop from clementi to pasir ris and to redhill.
sighs.
if only today ended off with me thinking happy thoughts though.
but really, sam.. it's really time.. ultimately, time solves everything. you will eventually get your way and be happy.. or.. you will just give it up, forget about it and just move on.
so.. just go sleep.
an idle mind kills your soul.
samquek
Thursday, March 10, 2011
one more to go..
tomorrow's finally friday. (:
ramen next week (:
sleep tml (:
samquek
Friday, March 4, 2011
stay on the road
how long is the road?
how long is the ride?
how long is the dark till we get to the light?
-corrine may
this week is over.
akicon concrete is.. hopefully.. over.
now for urban and environment.
and design..
samquek
Thursday, March 3, 2011
aki makes me look awful
cement in my pores
fiberglass in my skin
eyebags with dark circles due to lack of sleep
dry rough hair due to lack of care when staying over in school
indulging in comfort food cause it is so stressful..
chipped nails due to sanding of models
but i still like aki..
when there isnt a mad rush for submission.
WHY IS ALL THREE SUBMISSIONS DUE NEXT WEEK?
ROAR!!
i pray that the concrete chair will be awesome with the first cast.
please let it be sucessful.
my house is surrounded with construction due to lift upgrading. there is a mad rush to complete all the lift upgrades by end march this year..
so i guess election will be pretty soon. haha.
but it's awfully quiet at night now since everything is under construction.
and horribly noisy in the daytime.
including sat. ):
awful.
you know.. sometimes, it's really hard to remember and fully trust that God has everything under control.
i keep trying to remind myself..
it has only been 8 weeks since 2011 and i feel.. like.. i aged so much but yet so little?
it has already been 8 weeks and i am still thinking about it almost 24/7
but..
i still have the mentality of trying my best and then see how it is? Somewhat like letting God deal with the rest.
this week is half over. (:
just 3 more days till the madness is over and then i can to rest properly.
samquek