Sunday, March 20, 2011
you get stressed and depressed when you are tired but you think so much more when you arent.
today was a really weird day. i'm not weird when i am alone. people around me makes me weird.. and stupid. seriously, i am perfectly fine and normal when i am by myself. but put me with people and ill just make a fool out of myself.
i think im getting more and more people-conscious. and i think i can't really relate to people.. i do not understand how someone can talk constantly to another person and not run out of things to say. wonder if i will ever find someone who i can talk to constantly without feeling bored or uncomfortable.
i realize you have stopped being my comfort, someone who i can just be myself with.
resting too much isn't good. it gives you the energy to think.. and.. reflect and feel all strange in the stomach, heart and brain.
but then after, not resting at all just makes you depressed and awful.
middle is good. yup.
romans 5:3-5
... but we also rejoice in our suffering because we know that suffering produces perservances; perservances, character; character, hope. and hope doesn't disappoint us because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the holy spirit
i feel strangely encouraged by these verses which i wrote on my paper screen window, which was the purpose of why i wrote it in the first place i guess. haha. so good job, past sam.
somehow, there are so much meanings in these verses.. even though i do not know half of them?
what is this hope that Paul was speaking about?
i'm still trying to grasp the understanding of hope.. and faith, for that matter.
hebrews 11:1
now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
is hope just about waiting for the second coming for Jesus, to be rewarded eternally?
what about hoping for something earthly?
i do not know whether i am truly hoping in the Lord, and hence, know that if i hold on longer, i will get it or if i am actually just wishing so badly that i feel that i would eventually get it.
or is it wrong if i just say 'hey, i should just stop hoping anf expecting so that i wont be disappointed if i dont get it.' is that being faithless?
it's so strange. why do i always think of your somewhat good points when your horrible flaws are so blatantly obvious right in front of my eyes.
the simple giving of the chocolate probably meant nothing to you.
but it's giving me, so far, two days of pondering and emo-emo-ing.
not to mention the fats that comes along with the eating of the chocolate.
haha..
http://www.cracked.com/article_19104_why-humanity-cant-get-past-7-deadly-sins.html
this is really funny.
alright.
i should go and concentrate on my design.
bloody staircases.
samquek